I have my spunk back.
You are probably sick of hearing about me, but I use this as a journal of sorts so if you don't want to read--stop.
Anyways, over the course of weeks to months I have been going 100mph when the speed limit is 75mph. I almost felt like I didn't know myself anymore. I wasn't depressed I just out of touch with me.
I sure wasn't any fun to be around, always consumed with a task and I spent every waking moment either taking care of my family or working on school work.
In school they recommend taking "me" time, advice that I just brushed off because I was too busy to take heart.
Although they still don't know what caused my seizure/fainting spell it was definitely the wake up call I needed and probably the only way I would have slowed down and tried to relax a little.
As someone said, I need to thank "the big man upstairs" who obviously knows that I am stubborn and wouldn't stop any other way.
The point of all of this is that I am back! I am enjoying my family, I have been trying to allow myself to stop what I am doing and enjoy those around me. I have started incorporating the things that I love into back my routine, such as cooking, running, capturing moments with Carson, etc. Even if these activities are barely there, they are little things that make me, me and until this experience that is what I didn't realize.
School, although educational had sucked the "life" right out of me...but I'm on to it's trick and prepared.
What little things make you, YOU and (I am stealing from Sheena) what do you do for "me" time?
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