Thursday, July 3, 2008

The scoop

I realize that I have been incognito for all of my blogger buddies, so let me explain.

In order to keep Carson from doing this

and this.

I have been trying to keep him entertained.

We are park regulars,

we have gone to a few birthday parties,

Ring leader

helped cousins move,

watched the Rocklin Jubilee Fireworks show,

have started music appreciation,

and made the best of a two hour oil change at Wally world
(there wasn't even a wait when I got there, go figure.)

He is a maniac that already wants to be behind the out!

But the main reason for me having no life is school. (I am venting so if you don't want to hear about my pity party, stop reading-now.)

Where do I even begin? Most of you know that I am starting Nursing school in the Fall ans since I was in school they added Pathophysiology, a new pre-requisite. Being as it is a summer class, it is super accelerated meaning I have 3- test a week and in 3 weeks I have read over 1000 pages. Now, normally I wouldn't mind having my nose stuck in a book, but this is not pleasure reading. So I officially have no "free" time.

I also had orientation for nursing a couple weeks ago and I have been having a hard time dealing with my upcoming schedule, I am not a huge crier but I cried in the middle of orientation, most of the way home and for awhile after I got home. My reason for being so sad is partly the fact that I am overwhelmed and the other reason is that I will be away from Carson 5 days out of the week. This time away is only the times that I am required to actually be somewhere and doesn't account for commuting, let alone studying, eating and sleeping which will soon be a thing of the past. Let me tell you I will have no life come August 18th. I also had a drug test...that I hope that I passed...and I have a never ending school to-buy list.

I realize that Nursing is something that I have wanted to do, but I feel like I am choosing between two good things, obtaining an education and being a good mother. I know that there will be no perfect time and that when I am done it will have been worth it but I feel like it is going to be a struggle, not only for me but for Andrew, Carson, as well as family around us. Needless to say I hope that this isn't the worst two years of my life.


Ashby Family said...

You are crazy busy!! Hope the class goes well. And school will be great. A little time of sacrifice will pay off in the long run.

The Goulding Family said...

You will do great Tiffani! It will totally be worth it. I know it's hard though. Hang in there! If you need anything let me know. Bunco will be a great time for you to have fun and relax!

chels said...

We are all so proud of you following your dream. You have people all around you who support you and will help with anything you need (me included). I could not be any more proud of my best friend for doing what you are and taking on the amount you have....go Tiff! I love you :)

The Elmers said...

Yes, you will do great!! Good luck, let me know if you need any help with anything!

And thanks so much for tonight...we seriously had so much fun, and I'm sure Brad will be talking about his singing/drum skills for days haha!

Jordanfam4 said...

I know exactly where you are right now. I had to choose staying home and supporting my family to make our lives better. I cried for days. I think that in the end it will all work out and our children will be greatful for our sacrifices. I am so glad your continuing your education. it is truly a gift!

Alexis & Josh said...

I am so sorry that you feel so over whelmed, but it always seems to get better after a good cry. I think that these 2 years will go by faster then you know and then you will be done. And luckily Andrew works at home and will be able to help out some. Good luck, you are going to be great! You are always amazing at everything that you do.